CALLING OVER COMFORT
"Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen." Ephesians 3:20
The summer before I went to college, I was as confident as any 18 year old could be about their future. I was leaving Albuquerque behind for a bigger and better city— Dallas. Full of anticipation for the future I saw there, I pictured falling immediately in love with someone who had the right amount of "Texas twang", and spending my evenings at the local two-stepping joint. I imagined the picture-perfect Kindergarten classroom that I already had a Pinterest board for, which awaited me after 4 years of learning. I saw my farm house with a wraparound porch on piece of land in the country. I pictured coming home at Christmastime saying "y’all" and teasing my hair to Texan perfection (ok—this one might have come true).
It is funny how God works; as you might imagine, none of what I assumed was God’s plan or calling actually happened. In fact, the boy I would end up marrying didn’t even live in Texas, much less at all interested in taking me two-stepping. I only went two-stepping once, and hated every second of it (let’s be real, anything that required me to leave the comfort of my house after 9pm is not something I am going to especially like). I didn’t even take one elementary education course - the major I declared at orientation - before switching my major, and then switching it again. And if you know from where I am writing this (hint: New Haven, CT), you can see that I did not end up in the place I thought I would forever call home.
It took a long time to admit to myself that what I had thought for so long was God’s purpose for my life was actually my own selfish intention to create my best and most comfortable life. It was comfortable to think about being in a relationship with someone I could see every night, rather than someone who lived 8 hours away. It was comfortable to think about living in a place that had everything I wanted and everything I needed. It was comfortable to think about staying in rich, Christ-centered community with my best friends. The life I envisioned for myself was comfortable, and I craved it. I struggled often choosing between things that would allow me to stay in that comfort and things that drew me further away. My weak flesh is so inclined to deny opportunities that sound scary or hard or uncomfortable.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Maybe you are scared of speaking out about your faith because you don’t want people to judge you. Maybe you continue to see the boy you know you shouldn’t because it meets societies norms. Maybe you, like me, crave comfort and stability and deny God-given opportunities. But the Word promises that the power of the Lord is made perfect in these weaknesses, and allows Christ to actually work better within us.
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20
Do you see that? This same power that rests upon us when we boast of our weaknesses is the power at work within us that allows God to do more than we can ask or imagine.
This power gave me peace and courage to move thousands of miles from home when my husband decided to go back to school, and continues to allow me to dream bigger and feel excited about a potentially uncomfortable future. This is the power that gives you the courage to reach out to the person that’s been on your heart and is the power that gives you confidence to know your worth.
We all know and aspire to be a Proverbs 31 woman, the one clothed in strength and dignity who laughs without fear of the future. To me, this woman is someone who knows her weakness and boasts in them. She feels the power of Christ within her freeing her to laugh and live confidently, uniquely, wholly, authentically, fully and passionately without fear. She delights in the future knowing that the power of Christ is at work within her to do more than even the greatest thing she could imagine. And she is within each of us who boast in our weaknesses, knowing God is made stronger and will do more than even the greatest we can imagine.
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